Yes, like everyone else I have given suicide a thought a few times in my life. Inspired by loss, I was keen on ending it all but what held me back was the same loss. The thought of the people I would leave behind lost because of my loss was far too painful for me to even ever consider it. Maybe my tormentors don’t realize how they torment me or I don’t realize that my torment is only the figment of my imagination.
What if I were to take that drastic step? Would the angel of death look upon smiling? Would it be redemption I receive or the consequence for all the pain I would cause… Would death end the vicious cycle one goes through each life?
Loss inspires both suicide & life, I have learned that for loss has given me insight of what my cruel action could do to everyone I know & cherish. If my loss could leave me lost & numb, then my loss would cause equal & irrevocable damage to those around me. It is with this knowledge that I strive to keep calm despite my trying complexity & hope that I never have to say ‘this is the way it ends’.
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